(YOU/YOU/YOU 2011)
I miss you in a way I can't really describe right now. Walked away from a tall blonde with a guitar this evening to spend these last seventeen minutes of the year alone in your bed, while you're thousands of miles away. Tomorrow the journey takes on a completely different tone as the year rolls over. I try to think about the thousands of small things that came together to make this year the beast that it was- from heartbreak, to finding the flow, to cranking hard, to leaving my city, to finding those special people, to suffering hard, to forging a path, to those moments that brought you and I together.
These are the last moments in a long journey; the final countdown towards the zero I've been waiting for. These past 12 months have meant more to me than I can explain, having the space and time to leave the place I grew up in, to push hard, to fall in love so fully again and again and again and again and again....
You're a part of this equation, so much more than you will ever know. The only thing I am sure of, going into this new year, the one that is supposed to end all years, is my desire to be with you. I want to be with you. I want you, wholly. You have connected to a part of my heart that I put away for a while. I am connected to you.
I love you.
